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After Chris was given a Penalty Charge Notice by SGC he sent them this letter below. Below that you will see the letter sent to Chris by SGC saying the matter is now concluded with nothing to pay!

In care of:
(Address removed for publishing)
May 28th, 2009

Re: GS10092187, dated 26/05/09.
Notice of Discharge of Outstanding Fixed Penalty Charge and Request for Clarification.

South Glos Council
Civic Centre
High Street
BS15 9TR

Dear Sirs,

Please read the following notice thoroughly and carefully before responding. It is a notice. It informs you. It means what it says.

The reason why you need to read carefully is simple. I am offering conditional agreement. This removes controversy, and means that you no longer have any ultimate recourse to a court of law in this matter, because there is no controversy upon which it could adjudicate. You always have the option of dragging these conditions into a court of law only to be told that they are, indeed, perfectly lawful. That is, of course, always your prerogative should you decide to waste your time.

For this reason it is important that you consider and respond to the offer in substance. The ‘nearest official form’ will not suffice, and consequently is likely to be ignored by myself without any dishonour on my part.

On the other hand there is a time-limit on the agreement being offered. It is reasonable, and if it runs out then you and all associated parties are in default, removing any and all lawful excuse on your part for proceeding in this matter.

For these reasons it is recommended that you carefully consider this notice and respond in substance, which means actually addressing the points raised herein.

You have apparently made allegations of criminal conduct against me.

You have apparently made demands upon me.

I do not understand those apparent demands and therefore cannot lawfully fulfil them. I seek clarification of your document so that I may act according to the law and maintain my entire body of inalienable Natural Rights.

Failure to accept this offer to clarify and to do so completely and in good faith within 7 (seven) days will be deemed by all parties to mean you and your principal or other parties abandon all demands upon me.

I conditionally accept your offer to agree that I am legal fiction ‘person’ Mr Christopher Mark Lees and that I owe £70 for services rendered by your company, upon proof of claim of all of the following:

1. Upon proof of claim that I am a person, and not a human being.

2. Upon proof of claim that you know what a ‘person’ actually is, in legal terms.

3. Upon proof of claim that you know the difference between a ‘human being’ and a ‘person’, legally speaking.

4. Upon proof of claim that you know the difference between ‘legal’ and a ‘lawful’.

5. Upon proof of claim that I am legal fiction ‘person’ Mr Christopher Mark Lees, being the entity to which your paperwork was addressed, and not Christopher: of the Lees family, as commonly called.

6. Upon proof of claim that the charge was the result of a lawful investigation unmarred by prejudice.

7. Upon proof of claim that I am a member of the society whose statutes and subsisting regulations you are enforcing.

8. Upon proof of claim that I showed you some sort of identification.

9 Upon proof of claim that there is a nameable society that I belong to and that the laws covered within any alleged transgressions state that they apply to me within that named society.

Sincerely and without ill will, vexation or frivolity

By: ***_____________________ *** (Agent)
Christopher: of the Lees family
WITHOUT PREJUDICE, i.e. all Natural Inalienable Rights Reserved
Please address all future correspondence in the matter to a direct Human Self, namely Christopher: of the Lees family, as commonly called.

Encl: Original paperwork as received.


{June 14, 2009}   What is a person?

A person is an artificial entity created at birth, it has a name- your name as appears on your birth certificate (berth, as of a ship- controlled by the Law of the Sea- see Freeman of the Land Website for more on this) It is your official ‘self’ and is interestingly similar to the ‘ego self’ talked of in Buddhism. It is not you, your soul, it is something you have, an identity. This identity is deeply entrenched in the ‘system’ and grows as you grow- gaining a National Insurance (or equivalent) number at a certain age and a title- Mr, Mrs, Ms, Miss, Dr…

To most their person is their self- as they have been carefully conditioned and educated into thinking so. Your true self is pure consciousness and is untouched by death, change, or anything. The person is a Legal entity used to control you on many levels. Through elemental magic the artificially created elements of Metal and Mist control you by splitting you off from everything, including your own soul’s energy and enslaving you to a corrupt and totally imaginary system called money.

The person also holds you to your societies values, beliefs and even effects your physical body through your Social Order Reality (SOR). Indeed the elements of life have been tampered with using alchemy, making your physical body vulnerable to programmed dis-ease processes, which are then treated using ‘medicine’, the mutated tamperings of the life elements, which in many cases make you even more unwell and even kill. Take vaccinations for example, these often cause illness.

So your person, which is imposed upon you at birth is the entity devoid of soul, which many confuse as their real self. This causes great suffering, especially at death. When you die, your real soul is untouched, but your person perishes- that is why its name is on the gravestone and the death certificate! A person, or your ‘ego’ if you like, is easily controlled by society and is programmed with your ‘lifeplan’. It is your person that graduates, it is your person that ‘earns money’ (even though money has no value), it pays taxes, it causes, through stress and programming, illness within your physical body- often the ‘big killers’. Indeed, life lived though your person is nothing more than slavery, pain and suffering. Only when you discard this ‘uniform’ will you be free to experience life through your soul.

In religious circles, an initiate often goes through a rebirth and is given a new name, this name is symbolic of their true self. Many people also choose to change their name by Deed Poll for similar reasons, or use a spiritual name- sometimes this is secret. Many are also known by nicknames and choose to use a middle name, or a corruption of their name. This is all a subconscious attempt to remove the ‘person’ from the central stage of their life. In the “>Freeman-on-the-Land movement, your name is written differently in a deliberate attempt to distance you from your person.

One of the main reasons for any spiritual practice, be that meditation, energy work, pilgrimage, playing a musical instrument such as the didgeridoo, is to tune you in to your soul energy, so that your true soul takes control away from your person. Spiritual practice dissolves the control matrix and the artificial elements, it allows you to experience oneness with nature and connection through the veil-between-worlds. You will still have ‘a person’ but will not be a person. You will be a free spirit, but just like escaping the Matrix, it may initially be a rough ride!

Please see About my Spirit Guides section for information on the source of this article

Earth, Air, Fire, Water are the four elements used in alchemy, they are the four elements on which everything else is based, (of course there is the fifth element of space, ether, mind, spirit, consciousness, or whatever you like to call it, but this is more the animating force than an element).
These four elements naturally combine to create four further elements- wood, wind, cloud and mud (sometimes called flesh). These four elements are the elements of life. Below is a brief description of each one.

Wood is created by combining earth and air. This process is symbolised by the tree with roots firmly in the earth and branches reaching out into the air. Wood represents all plant life on the planet and also all plant like microscopic lifeforms.

Mud (or flesh) is created by combining earth and water. This process is somewhat symbolised by creating people out of clay. It represents all animal life, including humans and animal like microbes. Mud and Wood together represent all life on the planet.

Wind is created by combining air and fire. The wind not only represents the physical wind, but also all the atmospheric cycles, including carbon, oxygen, sulphur, etc. It is the breath of Gaia, the lifeforce of the planet.

Cloud is created by combining water and fire. Cloud represents the physical clouds and the life processes involving water. It is related to wind and the two interact very closely, just as mud and wood interact closely. Cloud not only provides rain, for which all land based life must rely, but it purifies the atmosphere and regulates the temperature.

You are probably familiar with the four elements of classical alchemy Earth, Air, Fire, Water and of course the fifth ether- the four elements have been used to create two additional elements of control. These elements have been created by combining earth and fire to create metal and water and air to create mist. This process is the real alchemy and they are used to control us and were used to create our social system. I am not talking about physical control, I am talking about psychological and spiritual control, the physical elements mentioned above are just allegories for the human mind. This control matrix is best summarised using the six pointed star of David, the four elements plus the two created ones.

Star of David

Metal is created from earth and fire. Think of physical metal extracted from ore using heat. The element of metal represents money, industry and technology. Before the rise of money, people used to barter, money brought control. Money is now meaningless and even the UK treasury admits that it has no value. Money is used to control us through vast financial institutions, I am not going to go into this but there is plenty of information out there- try The David Icke Website for a start.

Mist is created from water and air to create the ‘veil between the worlds’ This veil is totally artificial and stops us from realising our true nature and potential. It also stops us from connecting with the spirit world and from connecting with our fellow beings. The mist can be parted using concentration and meditation and it has also been used mythologically to hide places, think of ‘the Mists of Avalon‘.

The absence of the element of ether, or spirit, is very important. These two elements have been created without using spirit and are therefore destroyed by spirit. As an individual evolves spiritually the mists that form the veil between worlds part and the being sees itself as part of a much bigger whole- this is the dissolution of the element of mist. The element of metal also dissolves, and this is one reason why spiritually advanced people do not have much money and also why many monastic orders shun wealth and disallow individual possession of money. This fact is key to the control of individuals through their ‘person’, what a person is, is discussed in the post What is a Person.

{June 6, 2009}   The Green Man

The Green Man story represents a return to nature. I have created my own version of the story based on one told to me by a storyteller, as is normal in the oral story telling community. Feel free to take the main points of this tale and use them to create your own Green Man story.

It was a long an arduous journey across very difficult terrain. On horseback I travelled many miles in the searing heat of the summer sun and to cut my journey short decided to travel through the great forest. There were many myths about this forest and most people avoid it, fearing that they may become lost or pixie led. It was however the quickest route and would cut down my travel time by a whole day. So it was with some trepidation and some excitement I drew into the forest along a small track.

The track seemed to be well travelled at first, but quickly became quite overgrown. I began to doubt whether or not to proceed, but decided not to turn back. It was nearing noon and the sun was radiating with its full midsummer heat. I had travelled a long way and was thirsty and hot. My clothes clung to me with sweat and even my horse was beginning to flag. After some time to my delight I found a river. This river was flowing with fresh water and had luscious vegetation growing along its banks. I guided my horse downstream until I found a wonderful pool of water next to a cascading waterfall. At last I could rest!

I tied my horse to a tree by the river and we both drank greedily from the fresh water we had so fortuitously found. It was the middle of nowhere, so I decided to strip off completely, peeling off my sticky clothes and putting them on the riverbank to dry off in the sun. With joy I jumped in the pool and swam, rejoicing in the cool water. I decided to explore a little and swam over to the waterfall, which was very loud and beautiful. I stood under the falls loosing myself in the moment, feeling the joy of the crystal clear water cascading over my tired body. Wandering by the green bank I foraged for some edible mushrooms, wild and tasty. I sat and watched the river, resting my weary body on the grassy bank. The sun was not so high in the sky, so I thought it was time to return to my journey and thanked the river for its refreshment.

As I returned to the pool I was shocked to see no sign of my horse or my clothes. I searched around for a while, thinking I must be lost. Frantically I ran through the forest searching, but to no avail. All I managed to achieve was to get lost, totally. It was now late afternoon and I was in the middle of the great forest, I was tired and frightened and lay naked against a tree.

I must have dozed for a good while, because when I came too it was dusk. The forest became eerie and I was aware of the seriousness of my predicament. I foraged around finding some wild berries to snack on and a few edible mushrooms. I found shelter in a small cave and after the initial shock became resigned to my fate. Perhaps someone would find me.

The next day was beautiful, I felt rejuvenated after spending a night in the forest. There was a slight mist in the trees and my belly told me it was time to find food and water. I spent that morning finding my bearings and by the afternoon could hear the rushing of the river. I ran towards it and jumped in, greedily drinking the fresh water. I also found plenty of food to forage on the banks and sighed in relief, I could survive.

For the next few weeks I stayed close to the river and made a shelter out of branches and leaves. It was simple, but joyful. I found as time went on that the wildlife approached me and accepted me into their home. My friends became the hawk and the deer and I even managed to communicate with them in a primitive way.

Summer did not last long. It was getting colder and colder by the day, the water almost too cold to swim in. My shelter did not seem up to the task of keeping me warm, so I ventured to the cave I found all those weeks ago. Life became more difficult, most of my time was spent foraging for food or walking to and from the river. The days became shorter and colder. The food became scarcer and I began to worry about the onset of winter.

To keep warm I took one last swim in the river and then rolled in the mud, caking my entire body. I found some fallen leaves, as it was now well into autumn, and rolled in them. The sun had enough heat left in it to dry me. I became clothed in the forest and it kept me a little warmer. I gathered leaves for my bed and lived like a wild man.

As food became even more scarce I began to get hungry, eating only a handful of berries each day. I was cold and weak and could not manage my trips backward and forward to the river. I collapsed outside the cave and waited for nature to take me. Then something miraculous happened. A wolf bitch and her cubs had taken residence in a nearby cave and the wolf had become an uneasy friend as we co-existed. The wolf took it on to herself not only to feed her cubs, but to feed me too. I stayed in the cave with the small family for warmth and was brought rabbit, birds, rodents and other small creatures. I slowly regained my strength and watched as the forest became white with snow.
The snow provided me with a source of water and the wolf continued to feed me throughout the winter. I learned to communicate with her using growls and grunts and when the snow had cleared ventured out into the forest again. It was now spring and the sun was beginning to have warmth. I could find mushrooms and as time went on, berries and fruit. Having spent three seasons in this forest I decided I now had my best chance of finding my way back to civilisation.

I journeyed further and further into the forest until one day found a settlement at the edge. I did not want to approach, as I was still clothed in mud and leaves. I feared that they would imprison me. Then, one day, I heard the crying of a little girl, many miles into the forest. I recognised her as one of the people from the settlement and approached her carefully. She was frightened at first, but I won her trust by offering her some wild berries. I led her out of the forest and to the settlement. I often wonder if those people developed a myth about a wild man living in the forest that rescued their child, as from then on they left food offerings at the forest edge. I took them gratefully, cooked food once again was wonderful!

I lived close to the settlement for some time and it drew into summer. The sun was hot again. I decided to venture back to the river and bath in the magical pool by the waterfall. To my amazement there was somebody else swimming. A naked man, a weary traveller. As I got closer I found that he had left his horse tied to a tree and his clothes out to dry, just as I had, all that time ago. I silently put on his clothes and stealthily untied his horse and led it onto the path. When I was clear I rode off, the next green man had arrived to take my place!

{June 6, 2009}   The Naked Priestess

A woman approaches a blue extraterrestrial craft. She is a priestess of the Tribe of the Phoenix and is about to meet an etheric being from across the galaxy. This being is one of her spirit guides and brings much love and wisdom to the new Earth.

Over the years she has developed her subtle senses enough to perceive this craft and the being inside. These craft have been with humanity since their genesis and always watch over. In dense times, such as we are currently living, such craft are only seen as brief glimpses by those momentarily sensitive to subtle energies. They are discounted by scientists and are regarded as a fringe phenomenon. They are described as UFOs, flying saucers, balls of light, fairies, spirits and ghosts. They exist on a level of reality that few can experience during our current order, but all will experience after the elevation of consciousness.

In the time of the priestess, people will be able to see these subtle phenomena as easily as we see physical structures. They will interact on a level of love at a day to day level with these beings. Some will develop their senses enough to board the craft and be taken on magnificent journeys across the universe. They will be able to elevate their cellular and thought vibrations to such a level as to become transparent to people of our current time, as if ghosts. They will then see these beings and craft as solid and interact with them accordingly. They will use their minds to control the craft and travel in time and space in the subtle dimensions. They may be visiting us here even now, but only a few will have the subtle sight to see them. Most will perceive only a flicker or a hint of colour out of the corners of their eyes, or perhaps the feeling of a slight breath, or the gentlest of touches. Such beings are regarded as angels in our time, but are really just our descendants. Some people alive today may be able to exist at this level.

The woman was naked, and this is a key to her subtle existence. She is in harmony with nature and connects fully to the natural forces. Clothing binds us to a dense existence, it blocks our subtle energy bodies and it places a barrier between us and the world, and each other. We live in dense times, obsessed with time and rules and desensitisation. We eat heavy food, listen to loud music, are bombarded by images and bright colours, and at the same time are insulated from feeling the sun on our skin or the moss beneath our feet. She is naked to be in total union with her surroundings. She is an advanced being of great intelligence and wisdom. Her tribal living is not retrograde, but the height of subtlety.

Technology for our priestess is based on thought and direct manifestation. She lives a life of simple pleasures and as such is extremely sensitive. She can sense the pain of a daisy being picked, she can feel every blade of grass beneath her feet, every droplet of dew on her skin. For her to be clothed would be for us to wear full body armour. Everything in her world would seem like soap bubbles to us, but is more resilient than the strongest of our buildings.

This meeting is one met with joy. Under a blanket of stars she greets her guide and friend. After a brief meditation calling down the subtle powers of the nebulae and galaxies, she is ready to board the blue craft. As she does so she feels a rush of air and a sense of peace. Being in the craft is like being in a bubble bath or luxuriating on soft silk sheets. Taking her time to meditate with the crystalline energies, she holds the key to her third eye. The craft responds by gently lifting-off, like a feather on the breeze. It rises into space and she looks down upon Gaia, her home. The sunlight shines through the craft, it is like being in a giant bubble. Her energies are too subtle to be harmed by radiation or solar winds, but she does feel the gentle caress of the particle stream.

The craft moves swiftly on, past the Moon and deep into space. The energies rise in vibration until the craft seems to disappear totally. It has entered a higher state, that of the etheric realm. Together with her guide, she pilots the craft through a sea of energy. Travelling across time and space until she reaches the shores of a beautiful planet. This planet is in orbit around a giant blue sun.

She lands the craft on a beach and slowly it crystallises into more solid form. Together they leave the craft and use energy techniques to ground themselves and to solidify their forms. This is not astral travel, but the next level beyond. It is travel in mind, body and spirit. She is totally present and her physical body can solidify as much as our own.

She walks along the sandy beach and reaches a settlement. There she meets others like herself, that is physical beings. They take many forms and are from across the galaxy. This is the galactic council and she is the Gaia representative. This may sound fantastical, but it has been done before. In Lemurian times beings travelled from the Pleiades to Earth in such a fashion. By Atlantean times they had begun to loose this ability and by our time it seems like pure fantasy. But these abilities are becoming manifest. There has always been a few who could do this. The difference is that in the time of our priestess, everybody can.

The council meet to help steer Earth towards the ascension of consciousness. They are meeting in the future, but their decisions will affect us now. We will only know their guidance through meditation and think of them as angels or guides. The council will meet and act as evidenced by their presence now. The time is right for humanity to ascend.

{June 5, 2009}   About my spirit guides

As a shaman I work with many spirit guides and spirit animals. Some of these beings help me to understand the nature of the otherworld, consciousness and elemental magic and also give my friends and I spiritual advice. The entries in the spirit guides section are transcripts of what they have said, usually in response to a particular question.

The metaphysical guidance given is shared with you in the hope it may further your understanding, but please be aware that the advice was originally given to either me or one of my friends in response to our specific questions and individual needs. It does not constitute medical or other advice and if followed is done so at your own risk and discretion. Much of it links in with the more metaphysical essays and posts in my blog- indeed many of these essays are distillations and reworkings of information gained from my guides and otherworldly travels.

Health is really all to do with the state of your body, which is composed of the elements. If the elements are out of harmony with their soul’s purpose then they will suffer. Western medicine does not see the elements at all, alternative medicine does to some degree- the humours for example. The best sort of medicine is soul medicine where your elemental body is kept in harmony with the elements themselves, both at the mind and spirit level. One of your main duties as custodian of a body is to ensure the elements are connected to their mind and spirit, just as you are connected to yours. This can be done in many ways- connecting with nature by going for a walk in the country is one, as here the elements can commune with the larger elemental mind in its natural form at body and spirit level. The physical elements of your body are in continual flux- the air you breathe becomes part of you for a while, so does the food you eat. Each particle has its own life and needs. It needs free exchange physically- food, air, water, elimination. It also needs replenishing with mind and soul elemental energy. Also, if the food, air, water you take in is of low quality, then the physical elements that create your body will be of equally low quality. So high quality building blocks are a must- but what defines high quality?

Forget all the marketing stuff for a while- yes, organic food is better, but the situation is more complicated than this. Anything artificial and anything that cuts of the elements from nature (whether they be in your food, water, air or actually in your body) will make the elements stagnate and illness will result. It is more important for the food to be in contact with nature as much as possible. Non-organic home grown vegetables are superior to organic supermarket ones, as they are in constant contact with nature. Anything from a supermarket has been subject to all sorts of insults- manufacture, transport, storage and finally subject to the supermarket itself- where it picks up the energy of the customers and staff, as they are the nearest source of dynamic elemental energy (eg living). Water direct from a mountain stream, or a well is far healthier than bottled or tap water, no matter where it has come from. Bottled water companies may think their bottled water is good for you, but it is processed, stored in plastic and subjected to supermarkets. Water from a stream is straight from nature, vital and full of energy. Air is similar- why do some many people, particularly ill people, go to take in the sea air? Because it is much healthier and vital than air conditioned or city air. Eat, drink, breathe from the most direct natural source and this will do wonders for your health.

It is not always possible to do this in the current society, so there are things that can be done to add some vitality back to the elements before ingestion. Healing using energy, meditation or visualisation will help to restore some of the energy. Storage of the food/ water outside will also help. Have you ever noticed that food made whilst camping or on a barbecue, or even consumed outside seems somehow more nutritious and wholesome, even if it is relatively ‘junky’? This is because the food is absorbing nature energy and cooking using natural elements such as fire is always more vital. Water too, if left in the moonlight or solarised, is much more healthy, whether it be tap water, spring water or bottled water. So where you eat and how your store and prepare it is actually more important than what you eat!

As for your physical body- being out in nature as outlined above is very important. Indeed just sitting in nature is more beneficial to the health of your elemental body than exercising inside. There are certain techniques which can accentuate this of course- chi kung, Tai Chi and other forms of energy exercises are very powerful at healing your body. Sitting looking at the clouds or contemplating a stream or listening to birdsong is also very beneficial. Of course exercise outside is helpful too. Being naked in nature is very beneficial as there is no barrier between your body and the elemental forces- that is why people like to sunbathe or skinny dip- it is a natural desire borne of your elemental body’s natural needs.

Having said all this, the bread and butter of it all so to speak, issues such as whether food is wholesome and organic come next. Naturally the fresher and less processed the food is the better it is for you. Vitamins and supplements can also help, but are exactly that- supplementary to nature energies. This is all very intuitive, but totally missed by current society, which likes to butcher people and poison them with drugs. It is not rocket science, it is simple connection with nature which allows your body to heal naturally. One of the reasons people get illnesses like ME, cancer, heart disease etc, is that they are so cut off. They may exercise and eat ‘healthy’ food and take all the drugs, but they work in air conditioned environments, cut off from nature with electromagnetic contamination all around. A day spent walking on the moors, or a weekend camping will heal your elemental body far more effectively than any slimming fad, medication, surgery or bottled water.

As a multiple group the rules are not different. It is basic nature connection. One of the reasons people get ‘winter viruses’ which are of course present all year round, is that they spend longer inside during winter. If you feel unhealthy, sit in the garden or go for a walk.

Now we have covered basic elemental body health, there are some other things you should be aware of- curses and diseases caused on the astral plane. These effect your body by either programming your own mind or by programming your elemental body. Trauma is remembered by your body as it is stored in the consciousness of your elements. This trauma needs to be lifted and the elements healed. This can be done shamanically using journeying and visualisation, your power animals play a central role in protecting your from such curses and trauma. Commune with them daily and visit them physically if you can. Your elemental body is not a complex thing in a way your mind is, its needs are quite straightforward- nature energies, protection from curses and trauma and healing from curses and trauma. Complementary medicine and affirmations can help your elemental body and there are many other things that help to keep it in good shape.

This is a transcript from guidance received from the spirit guide Steven, in response to a question about health, it is not intended to be medical advice.

“How does manifestation actually work? Is it “believe enough”, is it “think and you shall receive”, is it “the universe gives you whatever it is your thoughts are asking for”, or something else? Just how much can someone truly manifest, physically? And what is the easiest way to manifest?

Manifestation is imagination on the physical plane. If you imagine something it is manifestation on the astral plane and we do not have a problem with that. We can quite happily manifest our perfect life on the astral plane, in daydreams, without even trying. It happens naturally, no extra belief is required. It is us who manifests as sparks of divine consciousness. There is no essential difference between the physical and astral or any other planes, they are made of the same stuff- solidified consciousness. The difference is in the frequency of the consciousness, the higher the frequency the less ‘dense’ the ‘matter’. That is why we describe people as ‘having their heads in the clouds’ or being ‘full of hot air’, meaning they are functioning on a less dense level- air instead of earth.

This leads to the astral apple analogy from Masynchi theory. The amount of effort, of visualisation, that is required on the astral plane as at a 1:1 ratio, as our minds are present here. You think it and it appears, fully formed- no extra effort required. Imagination is your only limit. Because of the density difference, the amount of effort needed to manifest physically is astronomical. It is so astronomical as to be prohibitive, a bit like to create one physical apple would require visualising as many apples as there are atoms in the sun. But physical manifestation does work and there are two main agencies- utilising the human body and using magic.

Manifest using your body is well established. You wish to manifest a cup of coffee and you go to the kitchen and make one- simple! It has a downside, you have to get the coffee granules, which requires money and this requires some sort of effort, or work- a job. Or so it does for a great deal of people. Money is not physical and more closely resembles astral material- so some people can manifest money directly and use it to buy whatever they want. They manifest in vast quantities and are extremely wealthy and can do anything they like (except stop aging, dying or getting ill!) They do this using a form of magic, a very limited form of magic, which of course is the other way of manifesting.

The simple manifestation magic, used by the wealthy, is mass consciousness manipulation, practiced by masons and other such people. Basically it is all about controlling people and feeding them lies and illusions. It is about creating social structures with rules ‘you scratch my back’ etc. Membership of such organisations is pyramidal, the ones at the bottom get very little and indeed are being controlled through hypnosis and brainwashing. At the top of the pyramid are the ‘Illuminati’ who are the benefactors of the wealth and resources accumulated. Look into this and you will find very few exceptions, the rich are rich due to their family connections. Hollywood is full of nepotism, businesses are often family affairs and the ‘big wigs’ are members of elite families. Even sport stars and other extremely wealthy people are part of this pecking order. There are very few exceptions, just those who have joined the right societies- sold their souls- scratched the right backs. This is not real magic, it is simple mind control.

Real magic is represented on Earth by alchemy. But alchemy is only a very limited and weak form of true Elemental Magic. This is performed on the astral or higher planes- its central tenant is ‘as above, so below’. It uses the metaphysical elements of Earth, Air, Fire and Water and their many derivatives in a ritualistic context. Each element is embodied, or channelled, by a priestess- who actually becomes that element for the duration of the ritual.

Elements are comprised of consciousness and must be treated with respect and reverence. The elements are related in the way a body, mind and spirit are related. The human body is animated by the mind which is directed by the spirit. The human body and mind are composed of elements. The physical body of physical elements and the mind of metaphysical elements. The spirit is directly from the goddess, but the elements have spirit too. It is important for the elements to be aligned with their spiritual purpose in the same way it is important for a person to be aligned with theirs. That is why guidance is asked from the goddess for any elemental magic and she often presides over the proceedings and takes an active part. This is similar to tuning into the goddess and asking for guidance or protection. The difference is the elements are asked in their astral or mind form, to effect their physical counterparts. This is how elemental manifestation works. On the astral plane the elements can be asked directly in the process of imagination to manifest in different forms. On the physical plane the physical matter is directed by the matters mind ‘the metaphysical elements’ to manifest in physical ways. The spiritual purpose of the elements and of the beings performing the magic is paramount, as to go against this would be to offend and enslave the elements into black magic. Such magic has been practiced by black magicians and has created demons and possessions- the elements get disconnected from their spirit- a bit like elves and awks. The magician will also disconnect himself from his spirit and enter a downwards spiral of negativity. Manifestation is only for the initiated high priestesses and directed by the goddess- this is very important.

Money is an example of elemental magic gone awry. Initially people exchanged in a spirit of generosity- all was freely given and gratefully received. There was no polarization of rich and poor, none of the control and nonsense now associated with money. Money is a basterdisation and manipulation of this free giving and receiving- it turns this spiritual activity into emotionless transactions, it removes the will of generosity and the sentiment of gratitude. As money is human interaction disconnected from spirit, the current world order will show just how such a negative spiral works. Money stifles and controls people and leads to all the control and nonsense of this society. It breeds fear, jealousy and resentment. In order to activate flow in your life, you must concentrate on the generosity/ gratuity relationship. This will lead to positive manifestation of abundance and freedom from fear. Money exists only in thought as an abstract concept. Do not pursue money or it will consume you, pursue the pure generosity/ gratitude energy and this will draw what you need to you.

The above is a transcript from guidance from spirit in response to the question at the beginning.

{June 5, 2009}   Social Order Reality (SOR)

Your current vibrationl level dictates not only your personal reality, but the larger realities to which you subscribe. For example if you visit a Zen monestary, the hopes, fears, rules, ideologies and hundreds of other factors are dictated by the general social order reality (SOR) of ‘being in a Zen Monestary’. This is going to be quite different from ‘the everyday world’ SOR. You will take your ‘everyday world’ SOR to the monestary and undergo a period of adjustment- a culture shock. By the time you leave the monestary after a week or so, you will experience a second culture shock as you return to the ‘everyday world’ SOR. This is because your ‘vibrational level’ automatically attunes to the circumstances you find yourself in, unless you really try to connect to a paticular reality. For example a Zen Monk leaving a monestary may well be culture shocked, but remain in the Zen ‘SOR’, and remain bemused until his return, where it will be a relief!

The difference between an everyday person and an accomplished monk, is that an everyday person will drift from one SOR to another, in order to fit in socially. This is displayed as personas- the work persona, the home persona, the visiting the bank manager persona, the going out on the town persona… A monk will always be a monk, no identifiale personas, just the ‘Zen SOR’ which he keeps himself centred in at all times.

In the ‘worldly world’ the SOR is forced upon you from birth and deeply conditioned into your personality. It is reiterated from the media, your peers, your parents, teachers… an endless list. This ‘worldly world’ SOR is multi leveled in a heirarchy and includes the sub-SORs such as visiting the bank manager, being at home etc, but also higher level beliefs and cultural norms such as homophobia, transphobia, belief that all pagans are in league with the devil, disbelief in the paranormal, blind acceptance of the political, economic and medical models, a strong grounding in materialism and many other facets that make up the western culture. Some people will deviate from this SOR completely and allie themselves with an alternative ‘counterculture’ such as conspiracy theorists, LGBT, pagan or any other of an almost unlimeited wealth of culture. They will align themselves vibrationally with the new SOR and take on the beliefs and ideologies of thier new culture. Changing back to ‘the worldly world’ is a task which needs as much reconditioning as it did in the first place. In other words, cults encourage their followers to align to them vibrationally and to the outside world they become brainwashed. Cult busters then ‘rescue’ the cult member and try to realign them to the ‘worldly world’ SOR. Indeed the entire mental heal profession has this as its aim, as do the major religions and social groups. They all want you to align to their SOR, so they can use your energy, add to their numbers and control you (A bit like the Borg!) Most SORs are part of the ‘worldly world’ heirarchy and those which are not are considered ‘counter’, ‘cults’, and now even ‘terrorists’.

So far we have discussed SORs of the physical plane. SORs also exist in other dimensions and planes of existence. Many people are considered ‘mad’ as they subscribe to a SOR only they have access to- an inner world. They are not mad, just connecting to a different SOR. There are SORs out there which have been around before the dawn of man. Beings so powerful and huge to be considered gods and goddesses. Some people chose to subscribe to this type of SOR, pledging allegence to a particular deity or ancient spirituality.

There are ancient planes of existence, like the Atlantis plane, resided over by goddesses and priestesses, which are accessable to anybody who choses to align themselves. They will undergo a vibrational alignment as their old SOR is replaced with this new, magical SOR. Old ideas and beliefs will give way to learning and knowledge beyond the veil. Their lives will become magical and they will flow, as if invisible to the world, through the physical plane with ease. They will not be confined by the physical body and therefore enjoy a much longer, magical life, in astral form whilst still connecting to a physical body. They will become ambassadors to this new level and connect with nature in deeper ways, they will become as the otherkin- mysterious almost legendary. This is possible for all those who have the will and the vision and the magical ones will assist in the transition. Human beings are supposed to exist like this, not as frightened, shallow beings forever running from their all-too-short lives and vanishing youth. They are controlled by the other beings, farmed for their negative emotions, but can break free of the artificial veil between worlds.

The above is a transcript from communication with the spirit guide Sherrell.

{June 1, 2009}   Brain Sex

The BBC have a Brain Sex test which is a little bit of fun.

The complete COGIATI in document form for offline, pen-and-paper administration and scoring. Freely distributable.
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COGIATI contents copyright C 1998 Jennifer Diane Reitz, All Rights Reserved


The COGIATI may be used freely by anyone, anywhere, anytime, by professionals and laymen alike, with only one requirement: that the original COGIATI be properly attributed to the effort of Jennifer Diane Reitz. The COGIATI may be printed, distributed and freely disseminated. It may be used as a basis for further work, and more advanced tests. It may be freely used, providing that credit is given.

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Answer all the questions as absolutely honestly and accurately as you
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The COGIATI exists to help the unsure come to some sort of grasp of
things in order to begin to solve their issues. It can also be used to confirm
or question existing self definitions.



Q. Describe your relationship with mathematics.

A. (-10) Mathematics is both useful and fun. I enjoy mathematical puzzles.
A. (-5) I am really pretty good at math.
A. (0) I do math as it is required of me.
A. (5) Mathematics is somewhat difficult at times. It isn’t my favorite thing.
A. (10) I hate doing math! It is both tedious and a struggle for me.

Q. You get a phone call from somebody you met for the first time a few days ago. How easy is it for you to remember who they are by the sound of their voice?

A. (-10) Pretty difficult, I don’t know them. I wish they would tell me their name.
A. (-5) I think I could remember, given enough time on the phone.
A. (0) Usually I know who they are after a minute or so.
A. (5) I can place them after a few seconds…I might have to think a bit.
A. (10) I would remember them pretty quickly. I am pretty good at placing voices.

Q. You are shown a number of close-up photographs of the faces of many different people you do not know. You are asked to describe the emotions that the people are feeling by the expressions on their faces alone. How well would you do, do you think?

A. (-10) Probably not that well. It is hard to read faces, you never really know for sure.
A. (-5) I would have a little difficulty with that. It’s not that easy.
A. (0) I could probably guess most of them. Probably.
A. (5) I would be able to get most of them right, I think.
A. (10) I would definitely know what most of the people were feeling. Just look at their face!

Q. You are at a meeting. Everyone at the meeting is the same sex as you. The leader of the meeting announces that it’s time for hugs all around! How do you feel about this?

A. (-10) What is up with all of this hugging stuff? This is unnecessary.
A. (-5) I would feel a little put off by it, frankly.
A. (0) It might be OK.
A. (5) It’s kind of nice. No big deal though.
A. (10) I love hugs! Good idea.

Q. As a child, when you played with close friends, how would you describe the type of play you liked to be a part of the most?

A. (-10) I liked to get out and do things. Run, jump, and yell. Let off some steam.
A. (-5) I liked to be pretty active. I liked cool toys too, and we would build forts.
A. (0) I liked neat toys, and we would ride bikes or play ball games.
A. (5) Toys were fun, we would play games where we would pretend a lot.
A. (10) We would make up stories about ourselves and our toys. We would talk and sing too.

Q. You meet somebody and they are polite to you, but seem a little distant. They are actually very attracted to you. How likely are you to know this?

A. (-10) Not very, it is hard to tell with people.
A. (-5) I doubt I would be able to tell without some clues.
A. (0) I might pick up on it.
A. (5) I would probably be able to tell.
A. (10) I can usually tell when somebody likes me a lot, even if they are shy.

Q. You are talking to a very newly met person. During your talk, the person brings up an event from their own youth. The discussion catches them off guard, and they start to cry. How do you react to this?

A. (-10) It makes me feel uncomfortable. I will wait for them to get themselves together. It also depends on the person.
A. (-5) I feel a little put off, but it happens, I guess. If it went on too long, it might be weird.
A. (0) I can understand that. It’s a little uncomfortable, but I can understand.
A. (5) I would want to help, if I could. I mean, they are crying.
A. (10) I have had that happen to me. I would try to comfort them as best as I could. I might even give them a hug if it seemed right to do so.

Q. You are alone enjoying some erotic materials of your own preference. What are they?

A. (-10) Films. Films first, maybe pictures too.
A. (-5) Pictures, films are good.
A. (0) Could be either pictures or written words.
A. (5) Probably books or stories.
A. (10) Absolutely stories. Pictures just are not as good as having it written.

Q. Which choice most closely describes why you dress up ‘en femme’, as a woman.

A. (-10) It is a very sexy thing to do. It is very exciting. I love it!
A. (-5) It does turn me on quite a bit,
A. (0) Sometimes it excites me, sometimes it’s just nice.
A. (5) Mostly it just makes me feel better somehow.
A. (10) The only reason I do it is because it makes me feel better. I really don’t do it for excitement.

Q. In your early school days, how were you at writing essays, poetry, and reports?

A. (-10) It was rather hard at times. I really did not like it that much.
A. (-5) I could do the job, more or less, but I cannot say I enjoyed writing.
A. (0) I did it well enough.
A. (5) Actually, I kind of enjoyed writing, sometimes.
A. (10) I would get carried away sometimes. I was really proud of my written work.

Q. You are parking your car. You must reverse into a somewhat narrow space to park. What do you do?

A. (-10) I slide right in. Piece of cake!
A. (-5) It’s a bother, but I can manage most of the time.
A. (0) It’s a little tricky, I might pass on it and look for better.
A. (5) I don’t like that situation. I would park there only if things were pretty crowded.
A. (10) I would go look for another place to park. Who needs the aggravation?

Q. You acquire an incredible power. You can change your sex whenever you wish, and the change is absolutely perfect in either form, male or female. What would you most likely do with such a power?

A. (-10) I would use it to switch back and forth for fun!
A. (-5) I would be a lot better than dressing up.
A. (0) I would be whatever I felt like as I desired.
A. (5) I would probably use it to turn female. I would mostly stay that way.
A. (10) I would turn female and I really would not want to use the power again, actually.

Q. You have been visiting a new town for several days. Someone asks you which direction south is. Do you know?

A. (-10) Almost always. After a few days, I know my directions.
A. (-5) I probably could make a pretty solid estimate.
A. (0) I would be guessing a little, but I would have some idea, I think.
A. (5) That would be kind of difficult. I would not feel very sure about it.
A. (10) I probably would not be able to tell. It’s not that easy you know?

Q. You are in a public place, such as a waiting room or a park bench. Circumstances require you to sit VERY closely to another person of the same sex. How do you feel about this inside?

A. (-10) I don’t really like to sit close like that.
A. (-5) Sitting close kind of bothers me a little.
A. (0) I feel a little uncomfortable with it.
A. (5) I feel uneasy on the rare occasion.
A. (10) I feel perfectly comfortable. It’s not a big deal.

Q. A situation involving people has come up. The people are debating the issue, and are unsure of what to do. You understand most of the situation. You are able to act in the manner you feel like. What do you do?

A. (-10) I step in and clear things up.
A. (-5) I let them know what is going on as best as I can..
A. (0) I wait for an opening and offer my knowledge.
A. (5) I listen to make sure I understand, then I ask to offer my suggestions on the matter.
A. (10) I will listen and see if they can figure it out. I might add my ideas to the discussion.

Q. Visualize the following entirely in your head. Do not draw or write anything, just use your mind. Picture a pair of cubes. The two cubes are connected by a bar through their middle, like a dumbbell. Imagine that the dumbbell object is floating in front of you, one cube close to you, the other directly away from you. Now, imagine that the cube nearest you is red, and the cube furthest from you is blue. Picture the dumbbell built of two cube and a rod begins to rotate, the near, red cube, dropping down and away, and the blue, far cube, rotating up and nearer. The dumbbell continues so that it now stands vertical, in front of you, the red cube on the bottom, the blue cube on the top. Continue this direction of rotation, end over end, three times exactly, starting with that state where the red cube was on the bottom, and the blue cube was on the top. What is the position of either cube, red or blue?

A. (-10) I am certain that the red cube is on top.
A. (-5) I think that the blue cube is on the bottom.
A. (0) I feel that the red cube is most likely on the bottom.
A. (5) I am not sure. This is pretty hard. Maybe the red cube is on the bottom?
A. (10) I cannot follow this at all. How am I supposed to understand this?

Q. You are talking with a friend. Outside, far away, somebody is honking their horn regularly and endlessly. It is not very loud, you can just barely hear it in the quiet room. What is your reaction?

A. (-10) So what? I am busy talking with my friend.. I might not even notice it.
A. (-5) It might come to my attention after a while. Depends on the car.
A. (0) I would just ignore it, if I noticed it at all.
A. (5) I would notice it, but I would be too busy chatting with my friend, really.
A. (10) It would bug me. Eventually I might bring it up to my friend, or I might try to ignore it.

Q. Yesterday, you met five new people. Today, you are asked by name about the people you met. How well can you picture their faces in your mind?

A. (-10) Not a chance. I just would not remember their faces. One, maybe.
A. (-5) I would be lucky to remember one or two, to be honest.
A. (0) I might remember what they looked like.
A. (5) I can probably remember what most of them looked like.
A. (10) Really very well! I am very good with faces and names.

Q. In your early school days, how were you at spelling?

A. (-10) To be honest, spelling is a problem for me. Even now I have difficulty.
A. (-5) Spelling was not one of my best abilities.
A. (0) I was fairly good at spelling.
A. (5) I could spell rather well, actually.
A. (10) I was very good at spelling. I still am.

Q. Can you remember tunes or songs easily? Can you hum, sing or whistle them with ease?

A. (-10) I have a very hard time remembering music. It just doesn’t stick.
A. (-5) Remembering songs is not what I do best.
A. (0) I am good enough with catchy jingles.
A. (5) I am pretty good at remembering a tune.
A. (10) I am very good at remembering music. I hear it once, and I know it!

Q. You hear a noise from somewhere. Without looking, how well can you identify the direction of the sound from you?

A. (-10) I always know the direction. It’s not that hard to do for me.
A. (-5) I pretty much know which direction a sound comes from, more or less.
A. (0) I know where the sound comes from about half of the time I guess.
A. (5) Occasionally I can know where the sound comes from, but not often.
A. (10) I never really know where sounds come from without looking.

Q. You are telling a friend about something that happened to you years ago. How well do you remember what clothing you were wearing?

A. (-10) I would not remember that at all. Why would I? What difference does it make?
A. (-5) Probably I would not remember at all. Unless it was important to the story, of course.
A. (0) I might remember, depending.
A. (5) I would probably remember what I was wearing.
A. (10) I would probably remember my clothing easily, and I might well remember what someone else was wearing too.

Q. You are about the age of 14. You have to take a test, but you can chose which test to take. Getting a good grade will result in a big reward. Which test would you choose to take, if you had a week to study first?

A. (-10) Geometry or Science.
A. (-5) I would choose Science or Math.
A. (0) I would chose History, maybe Science.
A. (5) I would choose English or History.
A. (10) I would definitely choose English.

Q. You are being described by someone. Which phrase do you like THE LEAST.

A. (-10) “Very sweet-tempered and receptive”
A. (-5) “Sympathetic and understanding. Never one to push too hard”
A. (0) “An all around good person”
A. (5) “Always takes immediate command of any situation”
A. (10) “An aggressive and determined competitor, without peer”

Q. You are driving about, doing errands, in the big city. You have been here a few times before, but this is the first time you have been here driving on your own. You have no map with you. What probably happens?

A. (-10) I have no real difficulty.
A. (-5) I get around pretty well.
A. (0) It’s a little tricky in places.
A. (5) I might get lost for a bit, but I would find my way soon.
A. (10) I would very likely get lost. I would have to ask for directions.

Q. Your penis and testicles are destroyed, perhaps do to an accident or injury, but they are gone forever. You are otherwise the same as now, but you are utterly without your reproductive organs, just smooth, flat flesh. What is the most realistic statement of how you would deal with this?

A. (-10) I would consider suicide. That would be absolutely horrible.
A. (-5) That would be terrible.
A. (0) I am not sure how I would feel. I could cope, given enough time.
A. (5) It would not bother me. I sometimes think it would be an improvement.
A. (10) I often wish something like that would happen. I seriously do.

Q. You are 10 years old. It is play time. Which activity do you choose?

A. (-10) I go outside and play ball with my friends.
A. (-5) I might ride bikes with my friends.
A. (0) I might swim or play with my toys with my friends..
A. (5) I would walk in the woods with my friends, or play with my pet.
A. (10) I would play pretend games with my friends, or maybe play board games.

Q. You are introduced to someone new. They have a tiny white thread coming out of their gray coat. What is the chance of your noticing this?

A. (-10) I would not notice that. It would not matter.
A. (-5) This is not something I would probably notice.
A. (0) I might notice it. Maybe.
A. (5) I probably would notice it, I might say something later.
A. (10) I almost certainly would notice it.

Q. How much actual discomfort or suffering has any conflict between your physical sex and internal gender caused you?

A. (-10) Not very much. That is not a big issue to me.
A. (-5) Maybe just a little. For the most part I am comfortable with my body.
A. (0) Sometimes I wonder if it would be better to be female.
A. (5) I do not like my body to seem masculine. This is a problem.
A. (10) This is really bothering me. I feel like my body is wrong. I should be female.

Q. Suddenly, somebody throws a ball at you. What is the most realistic outcome?

A. (-10) I would probably catch the ball.
A. (-5) I might catch the ball.
A. (0) I would be surprised. I might drop the ball.
A. (5) I would probably drop the ball.
A. (10) I would be surprised, that’s for sure! I doubt I would catch the ball.

Q. You are in a restaurant with some friends. It is moderately noisy, but not loud. A song you know comes over the loudspeakers, but done in Muzak ™ style, often called “elevator music”. Would you recognize the song instantly?

A. (-10) In that style, I probably would not even recognize any song.
A. (-5) I doubt I would recognize the song, especially over the noise.
A. (0) I might recognize the song.
A. (5) I would probably recognize the song, after a few moments.
A. (10) I would recognize the song quickly.

Q. Suddenly the entire world is magically changed. Now you exist in a world utterly devoid of gender. All bodies are hermaphroditic, utterly androgynous in appearance, both male and female at the same time. The culture reflects this, as does all human interaction. You, however, are still yourself inside, with all of your memories of living in our world as it is now. Your feelings are intact, only your flesh has been changed. In this new world, everyone dresses, acts, and lives however they feel at the time, and there is no such thing as being male or being female. You alone remember the world of gender. In such a world, would you still need to dress like a woman?

A. (-10) Without question. I really love being feminine. It would be a very disturbing world, too.
A. (-5) Yes. I really enjoy expressing femininity. I would miss it a lot.
A. (0) I guess it just would not matter anymore, would it? This is my dream world.
A. (5) I don’t know. It would be easier to live how I wish though.
A. (10) how I dress is not really the issue for me. I would just dress how I felt.

Q. You are working with a group of people on an important project. What is the most important concern to you with regard to the interpersonal structure of the group?

A. (-10) It is most important that everyone share the same degree of dedication.
A. (-5) Everyone has to work well together. It is best if they keep focused on the job.
A. (0) It’s important to get along well, but getting the job done is the first priority.
A. (5) I would be concerned that everyone get along with each other well, and respect each other’s feelings.
A. (10) It is best if everyone could be friends, and enjoy each other’s company. That would make the job get done faster.

Q. Somewhere, a bell rings softly. You have to point to the exact location instantly. How well can you do this?

A. (-10) I would know right where the bell was.
A. (-5) I would probably be right most of the time.
A. (0) I might get it right.
A. (5) That would be hard to do, but I could probably point to it.
A. (10) I would probably not be able to point it out exactly.

Q. A doctor offers you a painless, absolutely effective means to be completely masculine. All feminine desires and traits would be eliminated, and you would be happy and content to be a man. You would never need to dress, and you would never want to be feminine in any way again. You are assured that after the treatment you would be completely content. Would you take the treatment?

A. (-10) I probably would.
A. (-5) I would seriously consider the option.
A. (0) I don’t know. Maybe.
A. (5) I would not want such a treatment.
A. (10) I would run away fast. That would be like death to me.

Q. Pick the word that you would MOST want to be applied to you.

A. (-10) Assertive.
A. (-5) Independent.
A. (0) Adaptable.
A. (5) Understanding.
A. (10) Compassionate.

Q. How easily do you cry at movies?

A. (-10) I really have never cried because of a film.
A. (-5) Movies do not often make me cry.
A. (0) Sometimes, if it is a powerful movie, I might cry.
A. (5) Sometimes something will just get to me, and I will cry.
A. (10) I get really involved, and I cry pretty easily if the scene is intense enough.

Q. Deep down, what gender do you really see yourself as?

A. (-10) I am probably mostly male.
A. (-5) I am more male than female at times.
A. (0) I am neither male nor female. I am kind of half-way .
A. (5) I am probably more female than male.
A. (10) I am mostly female.

Q. Which do you feel is most desirable to possess?

A. (-10) Power.
A. (-5) Respect.
A. (0) Friendship.
A. (5) Compassion.
A. (10) Love.

Q. Pick the choice that most closely represents the age at which your gender first became an issue or a concern to you.

A. (-10) About age 15.
A. (-5) About age 12.
A. (0) About age 9.
A. (5) About age 7
A. (10) About age 5.

Q. Have you ever suffered a migraine ‘headache’?

A. (-10) Never.
A. (-5) I doubt it.
A. (0) Maybe once.
A. (5) I have had a few.
A. (10) I have had more than a few over the years.

Q. How long have you felt that you have had a gender incongruous with the sex of your body?

A. (-10) I do not feel that way, at least not strongly.
A. (-5) Fairly recently I have begun to feel that way.
A. (0) I have always wondered about the issue.
A. (5) For a long time now, I have felt that way.
A. (10) My earliest memories are of having a problem with this issue.

Q. What is the honest degree that sexual excitement and attraction play in the importance and value of crossdressing to you?

A. (-10) It really is very important to me.
A. (-5) It matters very much.
A. (0) It is nice but not the only reason.
A. (5) It is not seriously important to me.
A. (10) Actually, it matters very little to me.

Q. How important is it to you that others would accept you completely as a woman?

A. (-10) Having people consider me truly female is not what is important to me.
A. (-5) It is not a major issue to me.
A. (0) It would be nice, but I don’t need it to be happy.
A. (5) It is pretty important. I would feel much better if I was so accepted.
A. (10) It is very important to me. I really want to be accepted completely as a woman.

Q. Have you ever seriously contemplated suicide because of your gender issues?

A. (-10) Not ever.
A. (-5) No, not seriously.
A. (0) Maybe I have felt close to it.
A. (5) I have thought about it fairly seriously.
A. (10) There have been times that I have really considered it.

Q. Have you ever been caught, discovered, punished, or found out about with regard to your gender issues, crossdressing, or gender related behavior?

A. (-10) No, I am very discrete.
A. (-5) Maybe once. I stay hidden.
A. (0) I have had a couple of incidents in the past.
A. (5) I have had a few problems. It’s tricky to hide completely.
A. (10) It is hard to keep hidden -or- I do not even try.

Q. When you look at a person’s face, how well can you honestly judge what they are feeling?

A. (-10) It is hard to tell just by looking.
A. (-5) I would prefer they just tell me. That leaves less to chance.
A. (0) I can tell sometimes.
A. (5) I can usually tell what a person is feeling, more or less.
A. (10) It is pretty obvious to me.

Q. You are having an erection. How do you feel?

A. (-10) I am aroused. That is what it means to have an erection.
A. (-5) Probably pretty good.
A. (0) I might be feeling frisky.
A. (5) It kind of bothers me when that happens.
A. (10) I hate that. I wish it would just stop.

Q. You are trying to describe the complex shape of an unfamiliar object to someone. You are not using your hands, and must rely on words alone. How easy is it for you to convey the shape accurately?

A. (-10) I can picture the shape, but finding the right words can be tough sometimes.
A. (-5) I can see it in my mind, and can pretty much describe it well enough.
A. (0) I can describe the shape fairly well, if I have enough time.
A. (5) I try lots of descriptions and comparisons, but it can be difficult to get the right idea across.
A. (10) It’s hard for me to picture shapes clearly in my mind. The words are the easy part.

Q. It is grade school. The teacher gives you a gold star on your work for excellence. What is it for?

A. (-10) I got my addition right.
A. (-5) I knew how to multiply.
A. (0) I knew the name of the capitol.
A. (5) I had perfect spelling with no mistakes.
A. (10) The teacher thought I wrote the best poem.

Q. You are told that something you said probably bothered somebody. What is your reaction?

A. (-10) I think it is their problem.
A. (-5) I have the right to say what I please.
A. (0) I might give it some thought.
A. (5) I would probably try to find out more.
A. (10) I would worry a little bit. I don’t want to hurt anyone.

Q. Have you grown your hair long, do you wear a feminine hairstyle, or have you otherwise altered your day-to-day physical appearance to increase the effectiveness of dressing as or expressing your femininity?

A. (-10) No, that would be a bit too much right now.
A. (-5) I really have not done anything that would be noticed.
A. (0) Maybe a little. Not a lot though.
A. (5) I do seem to like my hair and appearance to be more feminine.
A. (10) People sometimes make comments, to tell you the truth.

Q. There is a voice mail on your machine. The person does not leave a name, they seem to expect you to know them. How easy is it for you to remember who called by the sound of their voice?

A. (-10) Pretty difficult, it’s just a disembodied voice. I wish they had left their name.
A. (-5) I don’t think I could tell just by the voice.
A. (0) I could place them after a few listens …I might have to think a bit.
A. (5) Usually I know who they are if I play the message a few times.
A. (10) I would know who it is pretty quickly. I am rather good at placing voices.

Q. A stranger is happy at meeting you. He wants to give you a hug. How do you honestly feel about this?

A. (-10) That would be a little weird for me.
A. (-5) I would feel a little put off by it, frankly.
A. (0) It might be OK.
A. (5) It’s kind of nice.
A. (10) I like to hug. It’s a warm feeling.

Q. You meet somebody and they are polite to you, but seem a little distant. They are actually secretly disliking you. How likely are you to know this?

A. (-10) Not very, it is hard to tell with people.
A. (-5) I doubt I would be able to tell without some clues.
A. (0) I might pick up on it.
A. (5) I would probably be able to tell.
A. (10) I can usually tell when somebody dislikes me, even if they act well.

Q. You are talking to a person you have recently met. During your talk, the person brings up an event from their past. The discussion turns serious, and they start to get strongly emotional. How do you react to this?

A. (-10) It makes me feel uncomfortable.
A. (-5) I feel a little put off, but it happens, I guess.
A. (0) I can understand that. It’s a little uncomfortable, but I can understand.
A. (5) I would want to help, if I could, because they are having a hard time.
A. (10) I would try to comfort them as best as I could.

Q. You are masturbating, alone. What turns you on the most?

A. (-10) Visual things, mostly. Images of people together or alone.
A. (-5) I prefer things I can see.
A. (0) Could be pictures or words.
A. (5) Probably words, ideas turn me on the most.
A. (10) Definitely something written, especially if it is written well.

Q. You will never, ever be a woman. You must live the rest of your days entirely as a man, and you will only get more masculine with each passing year. There is no way out. What is your reaction?

A. (-10) I could cope. Not much different than now.
A. (-5) As long as I can still dress in private, I would survive.
A. (0) It would hurt, but I would carry on.
A. (5) I don’t think I could bear that.
A. (10) I am better off dead.

Q. You are shown a film of close-up images of the faces of many different people. You are asked to describe the emotions that the people are feeling by the expressions on their faces alone. How well would you be able to tell the emotions of the people?

A. (-10) Probably not that well.
A. (-5) I would have some difficulty with that.
A. (0) I could probably guess some of them.
A. (5) I would be able to get most of them right.
A. (10) I would know what most of the people were feeling.

Q. You are spending time with a group of married friends. Two of them are secretly having an affair. Would you detect this easily?

A. (-10) If they are keeping it secret, how am I supposed to know?
A. (-5) If they slipped up, I could probably guess.
A. (0) I probably would be able to tell, after a while.
A. (5) I usually pick up on such things fairly quickly, I think.
A. (10) I catch that sort of thing easily. You can just tell. You can feel it.

Q. Are you now on – or just about to start – hormone therapy?

A. (-10) No. I am not sure that I want to use hormones.
A. (-5) I am not, but I have thought about it. Probably not.
A. (0) I wonder whether hormones might be good to try.
A. (5) I am about to start hormone therapy, as soon as I can.
A. (10) I am on hormone therapy right now.

Q. Have you ever spent longer than one week living entirely as a woman?

A. (-10) No. I am not sure how I would feel about doing that.
A. (-5) I have tried something like that, but is became tiring or uncomfortable.
A. (0) No, but it might be interesting to try.
A. (5) I would like to do that, and I might if I can.
A. (10) Yes. I really loved it.

Q. Which choice most closely describes how you feel about living as a man in the world?

A. (-10) There are some definite advantages, I have to admit.
A. (-5) It can be useful in many circumstances.
A. (0) It is just one way to be in the world. It has it’s problems and benefits.
A. (5) I cannot think of much good about it.
A. (10) It is a pretty unpleasant thing to be.

Q. You are about to die. In your last moments, you are presented with a choice. You can be buried and remembered as a man, or buried and remembered as a woman. Which do you choose?

A. (-10) I want to be remembered accurately. It really doesn’t matter at that point anyway.
A. (-5) My family and friends might be bothered by that. Better not change things.
A. (0) Whatever. Doesn’t really matter to me.
A. (5) I would probably wish to be remembered as a woman.
A. (10) If I have to die, I would absolutely prefer to be remembered as a woman.

Q. Which is the closest to your own current self definition?

A. (-10) I am a crossdresser.
A. (-5) I have a female side that I like to express.
A. (0) I am sort of both male and female. Perhaps a transgenderist.
A. (5) I am probably a transsexual.
A. (10) I know that I am a transsexual.


Scoring the COGIATI:

Assess the score from this table:

Score: -650 to -389, COGIATI classification ONE, STANDARD MALE
Score: -390 to -129, COGIATI classification TWO, FEMININE MALE
Score: -130 to +129, COGIATI classification THREE, ANDROGYNE
Score: +130 to +389,COGIATI classification FOUR, PROBABLE TRANSSEXUAL
Score: +390 to +650, COGIATI classification FIVE, TRANSSEXUAL


COGIATI classification results:


What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality
Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially
masculine, and that your gender issues are primarily matters of personal
expression rather than a medical problem. Any struggles you have are
most likely caused by internal shame over your needs and desires, or
because of curiosity over what those needs represent.


Your situation is the easiest and most secure of all of the COGIATI result

Since your situation is not a matter of any physical or biological concern,
the suggestions for your circumstance are relatively simple.

1. If you have any uncomfortability about your gender expression, some
slight degree of counseling might well prove helpful. The primary goal
would be to make it possible for you to enjoy your gender expressions
free from any shame or embarrassment, and to resolve any remaining
questions you might have.

2. Your gender play is just that … play, and it is advised that you consider it
as such. Your gender play is a form of enjoyment for you and contributes
to your happiness like any enjoyable interest. You are almost certainly not
a transsexual, and any action taken in that direction would likely lead to

3. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups
devoted to gender play of various varieties. There is literally a world of
friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications,
vacations, and activities that would expand your gender play.



What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality
Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be mostly
masculine, and that your gender issues are primarily matters of personal
expression rather than a medical problem. Any struggles you have are
most likely caused by internal shame over your needs and desires, or
because of curiosity over what those needs represent. There is, however,
some indication of a strong feminine side to your being, and this is
intrinsic to your constitution.


Your situation is fairly uncomplicated, so you should be relieved.

Since your situation is almost certainly not a matter of any real physical or
biological concern, the suggestions for your circumstance are relatively

1. If you have any uncomfortability about your gender expression,
counseling might well prove helpful. The primary goal would be to make it
possible for you to enjoy your gender expressions free from any shame or
embarrassment, and to resolve any remaining questions you might have.

2. Your gender issues and expressions are more than mere play, and are a
form of personal identity expression, but this is no indication of
transsexualism. Indeed, all information suggests that the path of the
transsexual is not one you should take, as it would almost certainly lead to
severe unhappiness. It is possible that a partial step towards greater
feminine expression might lead to greater happiness, but such an
undertaking should be approached with extreme caution.

3. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups
devoted to gender play of various varieties. There is literally a world of
friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications,
vacations, and activities that would expand your gender play.



What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality
Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially
androgynous, both male and female at the same time, or possibly neither.
In some cultures in history, you would be considered to be a third sex,
independent of the polarities of masculine or feminine. Your gender issues
are intrinsic to your construction, and you will most likely find your
happiness playing with expressing both genders as you feel like it.


Your situation is a little tricky in our current society, but not tremendously
so, depending on your geographic location.

The suggestions for your circumstance are not overly complicated.

1. If you have any comfortability about your gender expression, some
slight degree of counseling might well prove helpful. The primary goal
would be to make it possible for you to enjoy your gender expressions
free from any shame or embarrassment, and to resolve any remaining
questions you might have.

2. As an androgynous being, both genders, and both sexes are natural to
your expression. Permanent polarization in either direction might bring
significant unhappiness. It is not recommended that you go through a
complete transsexual transformation. You might find a partial
transformation of value, if you find yourself more attracted overall to the
feminine. You are more likely a transgenderist, than a transsexual. It is
recommended that you recognize that your gender issues are real, but
that extreme action regarding them should be viewed with great caution.

3. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups
devoted to gender play of various varieties. There is literally a world of
friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications,
vacations, and activities that would expand your gender play.



What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality
Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially
feminine, but with some masculine or androgynous traits. It is very
possible that you are a candidate for a diagnosis of transsexualism. You
show a strong degree of gender dysphoria. At the very least, further
investigation should be undertaken. Your COGIATI score places you
among the majority of those diagnosed as transsexuals, the ‘late onset’


Your situation is potentially serious and indicative of a probable inborn
gender conflict. It is definitely recommended that you pursue further

The suggestions for your circumstance are several.

1. It is recommended that you seek help from a sympathetic counselor or
professional about your gender issues. It is very possible that over time
they will become increasingly difficult to cope with. Early determination of
what you really need and want is vital. You need to determine if you truly
are transsexual. Keep in mind, though, that many alternatives exist other
than complete sexual transformation. Partial transformation and many
other way of existing are available. While you are very possibly a
transsexual, COGIATI has determined that this is not absolutely certain.
While time is an issue, being certain is more important. Proceed with
investigation of your possible transsexuality or transgenderism, but with

2. Some actions may help you to define your needs more clearly.
Experimenting with living full time as a woman, taking hormones for a
short time under supervision, or taking testosterone suppressers to
observe how you feel are all viable options. Keep in mind that while it is
very likely that you might be a transsexual, it is not certain. Do not take
severe or permanent actions without long thought and the help of
counselors and professionals.

3. Your gender issues are real, and should not be ignored. Neither should
you rush into acting on them, however powerful they may feel. You do not
fit the full criterion for the rarest classification, classic transsexuality, and
so should be cautious, and open to possibilities. You may yet end up
undergoing transition, and the path of the transsexual may well be your
salvation. Be very careful, but do not ignore your issues.

4. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups
devoted to gender expression of various kinds. There is literally a world of
friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications,
vacations, and activities that would expand your gender expression.



What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality
Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be female.
According to COGIATI, your mind and gender identity is that of a woman.
You essentially fit the the model of the classic transsexual, and you should
not ignore your gender issues, they will only become more severe.
You definitely need to seek treatment.


Your situation is serious and highly indicative of an inborn gender conflict.
It is strongly recommended that you pursue further action.

The suggestions for your circumstance are important.

1. It is recommended that you seek help from a sympathetic counselor or
professional about your gender issues. Over time they will become
increasingly difficult to cope with. Early confirmation and diagnosis of
your transsexuality is vital. The sooner you seriously seek help, the more
likely you are to not only survive, but to be happy as well.

2. Some actions may help you to define your condition to yourself more
clearly. Experimenting with living full time as a woman, taking hormones
for a short time under supervision, or taking testosterone suppressers to
observe how you feel are all viable options. Keep in mind that while it is
extremely likely that you are a transsexual, it is not certain. Do not take
severe or permanent actions without careful thought and the help of
counselors and professionals.

3. Your gender issues are real, and should not be ignored! Neither should
you rush into acting on them, however powerful they may feel. Transition
to a body with a female sex may be your salvation, but it is imperative that
you be absolutely sure of what your really want. Act IMMEDIATELY to
pursue solving your gender dysphoria. Seek professional assistance

4. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups
devoted to gender expression of various kinds. There is literally a world of
friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications,
vacations, and activities that would expand your gender expression.

5. You have my wishes for your happiness, my sister. Good luck.

{June 1, 2009}   Masynchi Alchemy

Alchemy is the art and science of combining the four elements of Earth, Air, Fire and Water to create gold. This gold is also a metaphor for self actualization and spiritual growth. Masynchi theory is based on the alchemy of the three forces- consciousness, existence and reality. Likewise these forces, or elements, are combined to produce all of existence. The metaphysical elements of alchemy are themselves created from the elements of Masynchi alchemy.

The ‘goal’ of Masynchi Alchemy is essentially the same as that of regular alchemy- spiritual growth and self actualization and control over matter, mind and spirit. This process is known as enrichment. The main tools are consciousness, imagination and concentration. Through journeying into the otherworld, the subtle elements can be worked with in order to create changes on the physical plane. There is much publicity about creating your own reality and the process of manifestation. To be truly adept at this process you must first master alchemy on the inner and outer planes.

{June 1, 2009}   Hydrosuperstructure Theory

The Hydrosuperstructure theory is an example of interaction between the molecular world and the cellular and macrocosmic worlds. The basic unit of interaction is the water molecule. The water molecule is composed of an Oxygen atom and two Hydrogen atoms (below).

Water dipole

The Oxygen is slightly negative in charge compared with the hydrogen and therefore water molecules become very weak magnets. This ‘magnetic moment’ is known as a dipole and allows water molecules to form complex structures when lined up with lines of magnetic field. Below shows water molecules randomly distributed, but apply a magnetic filed and they will align nicely.

random alignment

The magnetic fields involved are sub-microscopic as it would take a great deal of energy to align water molecules on the macroscopic level. This is possible when using very powerful superconducting magnets, where a glass of water can actually move across a table.

water alignment

Homeopathy is the ultimate demonstration of Hydro Superstructure theory, as it works by continued dilution until there are no molecules of the original substance left, just the energetic imprint.
The diagram below illustrates this process-
• When lots of molecules are present they form a magnetic field, but due to random distribution the field lines interact and the resulting overall magnetic filed is weak and ill defined.
• If continued dilutions take place until only one molecule is left, then the filed lines are much more defined, but the molecule itself and the left over imprints of the other molecules creates a less than perfect field.
• With successive dilutions there are no molecules, just the imprint of a pure field. Think of it like footprints on a beach after a busy day. The footprints look random, but as the tide washes them away, the symmetry becomes apparent. Rarefacation continually dilutes the substance until only a ‘pure footprint’ is left- long after the last molecule has disappeared.

rarefied water

With molecular interactions the molecules are just mini field generators- the important consituant is the field itself. It is the etheric body that creates the magneto electric field, a very weak field at the macroscopic level, but the organising force of molecules, cells and ultimately all life.

{June 1, 2009}   Masynchi Integration

A Masynchi is the result of interaction between two or more forces. These forces can be present on any level of existence and can create a masynchi construct that transcends that level of reality. In the next section you will see how water molecules help to mediate the interaction between the molecular world and the cellular larger macroscopic world of individual beings.

As seen in the previous sections, any two interacting energies can create a masynchi construct of potentially infinite differentiation. The figure belows shows this in abstract terms, as each level of the masynchi is built up starting from the initial interaction, and snowballing exponentially, building up like an onion.


According to the Masynchi Theory creation myth, undifferentiated consciousness- or pure awareness, underpins all of reality. People call this God, the Goddess, Great Spirit, The Force, and any number of other names. This universal field of consciousness decided to enrich its experience and the only way it could do this is by splitting itself into two- self and other. This was the original thought of god and was the act of creation.


The three forces of consciousness, existence and reality were therfore unleashed and interacted to form the first Masynchi construct. This construct expanded exponentially and infinitely, as there was nothing to stop it. It became enriched with complexity and formed the Masynchi continuum, the underlying layer of reality.

It is from this fertile layer of building blocks that all the universes were created (of which ours is just one). Each universe is a masynchi construct born out of the Masynchi Continuum. As layers of reality are created, each becomes richer than the previous. The Masynchi Continuum is the most basic level and contains the three pure forces in an infinite lattice. The next level (for us anyway) was the early universe, the Big Bang, which generated physical matter and energy and the background of the cosmos- the sub-quantum world. The layers build up like an onion, each a little more enriched, a little bit more sophisticated. Below some of these reality layers are listed in terms of humans, as other structures can have different reality levels (eg stars, minerals). It is not a definitive list, but illustrates the point.

Levels of Reality
Masynchi Continuum
Sub-Quantum (Superstrings)
Solar System
Spiral Arm
Local Group

It is interesting to note that we as individuals are about mid way in this onion of realities. Each reality is its own plane of existence with its own physical and metaphysical laws, the higher the plane the more developed the consciouness. There are of course planes of reality outside the physical- these are loosely attached to their physical counterparts and a parallel expansion process takes place (see below), so the Universe is a very complex place indeed!

levels of reality

et cetera